Tuesday, May 25, 2010
3 Baby Steps
The funny thing about doing something you are dreading is that, after you do it, it doesn't seem so bad after all. The mind can often exaggerate the consequences or the magnitude of the task at hand. Of course, the question that comes to mind after the fact is usually, "What was I making such a fuss about?" In hindsight, all of our worries about such a task seem to pale in comparison to the task itself.
The same could be said about committing certain thoughts to print, especially those we are reluctant to share. The funny thing is that once we get them out there, they no longer have any power over us. We are liberated by the act of airing them. We own up to our situation and move on. In my own case, I'd had reservations about publicly addressing the situation with my running, as many people were still under the mistaken impression that I was still actively racing and training, and it pained me to tell people otherwise. Even though I'd had some initial reservations about sharing this news, I knew it was something I needed to do for several reasons.
Now that it's out there, I feel a strange sense of relief, and am once again finding the resolve to start over again. Towards that end, I'd like to send out my heartfelt thanks to those of you who've expressed your support after I broke the news. I was feeling a bit hesitant after I'd posted that particular update and it felt good to be bolstered by your uplifting and encouraging words.
As for the immediate future, my goals for the upcoming months are very modest, much more so than those of the previous two years. Then again, I find myself in a completely different situation than before, and a person can rarely gauge their goals from year to year with a "one size fits all" approach.
I'm currently visiting my parents; however, upon my return from this trip, I plan to start the C25K program yet again. While I've been here, I have been doing little bits of exercise here and there, dog walks interspersed with some running, yesterday's recent bike ride, and hopefully some more walk-run intervals and then a much-anticipated kayaking trip -- an all day family outing. I'm also going to help my parents do some landscaping around the house. Hopefully, all of these activities will help ease me back into a regular running routine.
My dad's going to do the Lewisburg Tri again this year, but this time has been training for the whole event -- swimming, biking, and running -- versus just the bike portion, which he did last year as part of our tri relay team. Even though he has been training for the running portion, he's not really supposed to be running anymore, due to the situation with his knees. And so, not surprisingly, he's reiterated several times how relieved he'd be if I'd do the running part. ;) I can take a not-so-subtle hint, so my latest goal is to train enough to be ready for the running leg/portion of the tri, a 5K course I'm already familiar with, having run it just last year. :) I'd really like to join him as a father-daughter team, as last year's event was lots of fun.
It's also nice to have a mini-goal to motivate. The tri will serve as my initial motivation to get the C25K program finished in time. If I start the program as soon as I return (i.e., sometime around June 1 or so), I should have plenty of time to build up to 5 miles of running and add a bit of speed work, in order to increase my stamina and speed just enough to "get through" the 5K with a respectable performance. ;) I'm not expecting super-fast times, but I'd like to build up enough fitness in the time allotted in order to do my best when August 21st rolls around. :)